yes? no? is it? maybe? could be?
Friday, April 22, 2005
Love or something like it...
i have always found life very funny. Even in the most darkest of moments I tend to see the sunshine-
afterall its the humour that keeps the ball rolling, but this one episode has left me completely lost and
without humour. As much as I want I cant see the good bit to it.
And so it happens that one fine day, few years back, love (or something like it) descided to pull her in.
She could see a future, she could sense loads of happiness. the only issue was that the person she fell in love with
didnt see it that way. There was love (or something like it) on both ends-but somehow the ends were not meeting. Over the course of
years, they shared a beautiful relationship, very comfortable with their level of love (or something like it). There were times she would sit
& wonder if she would ever have so much love (or something like it) for her partner whom she would eventually settle
down with. The thought scared her.
Then one fine moment, things descided to change. Out of the blue, he proposed to her.
She was taken completely by shock. There was a roller coaster of emotions. Had'nt she been hoping, praying
& waiting for this all along? Then why the empty feeling? She was scared of the fact that maybe he was thinking too
emotionally-maybe he was not in his right mind. Why this sudden decision after all these years? Everything was right
there in front of her. The decision was hers to make. she wanted to shout out a "YES", but something would just stop her.
Sitting & analyzing, she came to the conclusion that getting into a bond of the sort would involve the risk of losing the
beautiful friendship she had with the guy & she loved him way too much for that to happen.
It would kill her to a certain extent, but if ever, in her later life she would nake him unhappy or make him regret the decision
she would never be able to forgive herself. She realised yet once again the intensity of love that she had for him, but she couldnt be
selfish & for her own happiness jump into it. They both were way too different & if thought of practically, problems were bound
to arise. Keeping all these things in mind & not wanting to put her "love or something like it" at stake, she kind off refused.
And now she just sits & wonders if saying "no" has upset him in any case.
But she has a strong belief in the fact that she has unconditional love (or something like it) for him, and no matter what happens
it will only grow with time.
Though for the time being she has lost her smile and the colours in her life!
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