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Saturday, March 19, 2005
Am I being too selfish?
I feel I am going through a phase of insanity-a deeper insanity. I am in that transition where I want my space,
even from my best friend. (I hope this is a normal situation). Not that I hate her or anything-its just that her
actions are way beyond me & I maybe dont have the courage to say this out loud. Not that i am afraid of her or anything
I just dont know how she perceives the whole situation.....!
Like for instance I made friends with this guy "U" & I introduced him to my friend "Miss A". It was a group of 3. Movies,
lunches, just hanging out-everything was in a pair plus one.
When things took a turn, I have no idea.
Their friendship turned into long term commitment and i was the last one to find out!
No I was not intrested in "U", but I just felt betrayed and sad. I found out about their relationship not from either one of them, but
a third person altogether. I went into my shell, not knowing how to react. The result being that I recouped with "Miss A", but to date my relationship with
"U" is very very constrained. The only regret being that I lost a good friend in him. "U" & I dont meet anymore & even if we do accidentally bump
into each other we just exchange a few words out of politeness & formality. I told myself that if they both are happy, that is what actually matters...
Six months down the lane-life moves on. I meet this another guy who is a great friend. This guy "S" is introduced to "Miss A". All is good.Again
everything starts happening in a group of 3. Its a nice feeling with with two great friends. I cherish them both. Each of them have a unique relationship
with me. Suddenly, I am not getting good vibes from either of them, or maybe I am reading way too much into the situation.
But if lunches, movies, itwaar bazaar & long drives are happening without me what am I supposed to conclude?
Is the six month history repeating itself? What happened to "u" and "Miss A's" relationship?
Am I on the verge of losing another great friend?
Am I acting too selfishly & immaturely?
Am I too possessive?
Way too many questions bombard my mind. Maybe just getting some space would help....or maybe I am supposed to make new best friends
every 6 months????
Posted by Kat at
9:55 AM
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