The Kat Lounge

sorry

2006-12-18T22:01:00.000-08:00

You, I know I have upset beyond words, but if anyone else I have managed to upset too, please forgive me.
This blog is going to be dormant while I am off to perform Hajj. Please pray that all goes well inshallah.

winter comfort

2006-12-16T02:41:00.000-08:00

choice

2006-12-12T23:31:00.000-08:00

I was gonna say, the problem is they know what matters, but they dont choose it.
The hardest thing on earth is choosing what matters!

may you forever rest in peace

2006-12-06T04:00:00.000-08:00

Not many times in life will you come across people, who totally believe in you, make you believe that the best is possible, have complete faith in you and push you towards your dream, making to want you reach for the stars.
I was lucky enough to know of one such selfless being. To whom money meant nothing, but respect was everything, to whom fame did not strike, but faith was everything, for whom glamour didn’t count, but love made her world go round.
While the Karachites were busy welcoming the cold wave, this gentle being silently became a target of it and dreaming of her upcoming Hajj, she sleepfully aboarded her final journey.
I cant mourn for her with anyone, but she will be remembered forever…
Rest in peace, Afghan Aunty!

a lot can happen over coffee

2006-12-05T03:16:00.000-08:00

really

2006-11-30T03:16:00.000-08:00

let go of the negative energy

2006-11-28T02:02:00.000-08:00

color me emotional

2006-11-23T22:35:00.000-08:00

secret

2006-11-23T03:45:00.000-08:00

Bajo, can I tell you a secret?
If you want to, I said....
well, whenever you get married, please get married to someone who loves you, rather than someone who you love!
I, looked at him, surprised....why I asked?
He looked up and said, thats the secret to happy marriages!

(A conversation between me and a young friend of mine)

karachi

2006-11-21T02:14:00.000-08:00

realisation 201106

2006-11-20T00:01:00.000-08:00

Absence leaves you with a presence of its own.

they say it isn't possible

2006-11-17T00:29:00.000-08:00

they said it wasnt possible, I refused to believe them.
Now they broach it again, wanting to make it possible and i am thinking if i want to believe them!

and the numbers will not make sense..they never do!

2006-11-14T00:42:00.000-08:00

Borrowing this intresting concept from ~half~ here I go:

1 sport that i am passionate about
2 younger, mad sisters i have
3 friends i will always want to be with
4 thing i am passionate about
5 years since i graduated
6 years ago i fell for you
7 people who work in my office
8 Dec 05, a day i will not forget
9 places that i am dying to visit
10 things i love to eat
11 cousins from mothers side
12+1 is my birthdate
13 things i wouldnt like to compromise on
14 people showed up for coffee at Costa
15 songs i can sing along
16 the hyped up age
17 movies that are lying around to be seen
18 things I forgave and forgot
19 = 15+4
20 things i want to learn
21 i realised marriage is just right round the corner
22 people i am fond off
23rd was an intresting year
24 birthday i celebrated in LA
25 reasons to make me smile
26 times, I broke down, gathered courage and managed again
27th year was beautiful in its own roller coaster way
28 I am believing and moving on!

28...here i come

2006-11-13T23:07:00.000-08:00

faces change...places change...attitudes change...but the magic continues!
happy 28

sorry

2006-11-09T23:43:00.000-08:00

complete

2006-11-01T04:00:00.000-08:00

complete is nothing.
Nothing is ever complete.

realisation 011106

2006-10-31T21:50:00.000-08:00

where there are sisters in the family, the madness never ends.

miracle

2006-10-29T23:53:00.000-08:00

hmm...
miracles just happen?
no.
You make miracles happen?
no.
what is beyond your doing, and yet happens the way you want it to happen is a miracle.
maybe.
You believe in miracles and it happens.
Yes

because somehow it all clicks

2006-10-17T23:58:00.000-07:00

He is the luckiest man in the world to have you, Rosie, but he dosent deserve you and you deserve far better. You deserve someone who loves you with every single beat of his heart, someone who thinks about you constantly, someone who spends every minute of every day just wondering what you are doing, where you are, who you are with and if you are Ok. You need someone who can help you reach your dreams and who can protect you from your fears. You need someone who will treat you with respect, love every part of you, espically your flaws. You should be with someone who can make you happy, really happy, dancing on air happy. someone who should have taken the chance to be with you years ago instead of becoming scared and being too afraid to try.
Excrept: where rainbows end
(because somehow this clicks with experience in life)

wishlist

2006-10-12T22:48:00.000-07:00

~the ck watch~
~green and blue silver earrings~ (done)
~that design book~
~silver buttons, Sarwana~
~the green and blue jora from koel~ (not buying. on second look not at all worth the price)
~an european vacation~
too materialistic....but i am worth it!
2 down, 3 to go!

yet another realisation

2006-10-11T00:23:00.000-07:00

you have to let go of your first love in order to be free!

because i didnt

2006-10-05T03:24:00.000-07:00

if i could, i would

2006-09-28T23:36:00.000-07:00

if i could, i would, but maybe i cant, what the hell, but maybe if i could, i would want to go back in time and fix a few things here and there....hmm....or maybe not! I dont know!

why?

2006-09-28T22:06:00.000-07:00

when a very good friend calls after coming back from a trip, it feels good to hear his voice. and when during the conversation, just by the way he mentions that he got nikah-ofied 3 days before leaving for the trip, it upsets you-no actually it angers you and when you demand an explanation and he answers "i just didnt know how to break the news to you" it sets your mind rolling.
was i not a good friend enough? or was the news not that important to be shared? or did we have any strings attached to our friendship, which i didnt know about? he understood my being upset-apologised. but that still dosent change a thing.
maybe i expect too much. maybe i am just over reactiong. maybe-just maybe....i dont know!
~sigh~

random-est thursday

2006-09-28T21:59:00.000-07:00

Random plan-madness with mini mars and lamba junior-mad rush to ebco, apple shop, media center-knight rider 40 minute ride from Ittehad to North Nazimabad-lazy cosmo afternoon on the yellow sofa-lovely jalebis for iftaar-a fun mad dinner at Nandos-K going red because of the car jam-nice chat with beautiful background music-car ride home in a heated white civic-conversation with a friend who understood my thinking out loud!
for those few hours life just made perfect sense.
happy birthday samina!

words

2006-09-20T11:14:00.000-07:00

the silence of the unspoken words can be deafening.
(why have i stopped making sense?)

talking lines

2006-09-17T05:54:00.000-07:00

people say that the lines on our hands hold our future....
what about the lines under the feet? shouldnt they hold our future? afterall its the feet that carry us where we go?

thinking out loud

2006-09-16T01:41:00.000-07:00

I miss being a part of them, talking to them.....I do.
but I think we have moved away so much...will the distance ever be covered again?

Tag it

2006-09-15T04:31:00.000-07:00

I am: an avid day dreamer
I said: it wont matter, but it did
I want: to travel the world with the one I love
I wish: that all my dreams come true
I miss: talking to my dadi
I hear: alot about marriage and settling down these days
I wonder: is it me? or has the world really lost it
I regret: not being able to say all that I want to
I am: addicted to tea, books, friends, bagels, cold stone ice cream
I dance: in my head
I sing: along the songs I like
I cry: when I want to, without thinking twice
I am not: going to lose hope and faith
I write: on anything and everything
I confuse: myself at times
I need: a vacation...right now
I should try: and make sure that everything is crossed off my to do list of 06-07
I finish: this tag with a smile.....

Anyone who wants to do it, is tagged.

2006-09-11T01:57:00.000-07:00

Saturdays have this aura to themselves...there is a certain vibrancy and music in the air. Starting the morning with the second blogger meetup, browsing the books at liberty, the fun lunch at aylanto, movie shopping at Laraib, the random arguement with my reason to smile, sunglass window shopping with my mad sister, ice cream from aghas, furniture checking at the architects, dinner at roasters, the beautiful mad sms conversation with the arguer, the wanting to buy everything trip to Habitt, and coming back to my comfy room....put an end to a perfect day.....HAI! I LOVE SATURDAYS!

unread books

2006-09-10T23:18:00.000-07:00

I love it when my bedside table is crammed with unread reading material. And now the table has three new yummy-licious books, waiting to be endeavored upon...cant descide where to begin! Hmm.....

realisation 110906

2006-09-10T22:57:00.000-07:00

action dosent speak louder than words.....money does!

decisions

2006-09-06T22:43:00.000-07:00

the warrior allows the decision to reveal itself

the warrior of light is terrified when it comes to making important decisions.
"this is too much for you", says a friend.
"go on, be brave", says another. and so his doubts grow.
after some days of anxiety, he withdraws to the corner of his tent where he usually sits to meditate & pray. he sees himself in the future. he sees the people who will benefit or be harmed by his attitude. he does not want to abandon the path.
the warrior allows the decision to reveal itself.
if he has to say "yes", he will say it bravely.
if he has to say "no", he will say it without a trace of cowardice.

manual of warrior of light / paulo Coelho

end

2006-08-30T23:18:00.000-07:00

happy budday buddy!

2006-08-28T22:39:00.000-07:00

Thanks for being there...

Thanks for listening...

Thanks for caring...

Thanks for helping...

Thanks for watching out...

basically thanks for being the typical BITCH that you are!

"just kidding"

Love you babe...

Welcome to planet 27!

Come back soon...you are terribly missed!

social loner

2006-08-24T23:15:00.000-07:00

and yesterday i was classified as a social loner!
whatever that means!

inspire

2006-08-23T22:58:00.000-07:00

free

2006-08-16T03:22:00.000-07:00

space

2006-08-09T01:11:00.000-07:00

some people come into your space...uninvited....and even if they walk out....their mark has been made! Those are the people who are not invaders....but conquerers!
Do I make sense?

rain

2006-08-02T04:35:00.000-07:00

with your back floating on water-the face looking out towards the sky, the raindrops pouring from the dark sky, against the light, down your face, is one of the most beautiful feelings ever.

for those few moments, it seems like god is sprinkling his magic portions on you.

all the worries are washed away to become a part of the water you are floating on!

believes

2006-07-27T00:23:00.000-07:00

I believe:
~ mamoos & khalas are the best things that can happen to you.
~ you can be anyone you want to be.
~ everything always happens for a reason.
~ letting go & moving on can be tough but not impossible.
~ falling in love is beautifully painful.
~ when all else fails, go for a haircut.
~ you are amongst the luckiest few if you enjoy what you do for a living.
~ haing girlfriends around can make this world a much better place.
~ life is beautiful.....

a link up

2006-07-24T23:55:00.000-07:00

a fellow blogger wrote an answer to an email that i fowarded to him. both the mail and the answer are quite insightful and make an intresting read.
enjoy!
below is what i fowarded:

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question "What kind of man are you looking for?" She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking, "Do you really want to know?" Reluctantly, he said, "Yes." She began to expound... "As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can't do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man...or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, "What can you bring to the table?" The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money. She quickly corrected his thought and stated, "I am not referring to money. I need something more. I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life." He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain.She said, "I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don't need a simple-minded man. I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked...believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster. I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don't need a financial burden. I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded. I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive...he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a helpmate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself". When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, "You are asking a lot." She replied, "I'm worth a lot."

to which he has answered from a mans point of view:
In a brief conversation, a woman asked a man she was pursuing the question, "What kind of woman are you looking for?"He sat quietly for a moment before looking at her in the eyes and asking, "Do you really want to know?" Reluctantly, she said, "Yes."He began to expound... "The point in life and career I am at, at this time, I would like to ask a woman what she has to offer that I can't get already. I have no shortage of friends, both male and female. I am never alone nor lonely. What I really want to ask a woman is, "What can you bring to the table?"The woman looked at him. Clearly she thought that he was referring to sex.He swiftly corrected her thought and stated, "I am not referring to sex, youth or anything of the sort. In fact, I need nothing. I simply need a woman who is striving for harmony in every aspect of life." She sat back in her chair, folded her arms, puzzled but intrigued, and asked him to explain.He said, "I am looking for someone who is striving for harmony mentally, so that she does not rethink and redoubt every decision she makes on a day-to-day basis, including her decision to be with me; and because I need the reassurance that she is on the same wavelength mentally as I am. I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because ideals based on tales and heros from novels and movies is a receipe for disaster. I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand that, as a male, I too can get hurt by words but strong enough to accept that despite all my good traits and bad, I have limitations and shortcomings, just like her. I am looking for someone who respects me for who I am. In order for me to be always loyal to her, she must respect me. I cannot be loyal to a woman who always doubts my morality and loyalty to her. I have no problem if she does not want to act submissive; for me to be fully committed to her, she must consider me worthy of her trust and respect. God made woman to be a helpmate for man. I can't seek help from a woman who thinks she could have had a better deal with someone else".When he finished his spill, he looked at her. She sat there with a puzzled look on her face.She asked, "You are asking a lot."He replied, "I can afford it. Now if you'll excuse me; Cindy is waiting."

random realisation

2006-07-24T00:05:00.000-07:00

i hate landing at airports where no one is waiting for you!

2006-07-19T03:04:00.000-07:00

the more you have, the more you need!

shop

2006-07-14T03:19:00.000-07:00

I want to go to States and shop and shop and shop.....endlessly!

i wish

2006-07-13T01:15:00.000-07:00

For One day i wish....
to be a bird...just to breeze through that feeling of complete independence.
to be a part of the U.S Government. I want to see do they act stupid or is it the real thing?
to be my dad...and see how it feels to be the only male member in the house.
to be the wind in the desert & see how capable I am of changing the dunes.
to be a butterfly...to see how they descide what flower to choose next!
to be the foam on the waves...to come gushing to the shore and then dissolve there.
to be the sunflower, just to observe how many people look at me & smile.
to be the sun...to provide warmth to all the cold struck place.
to be the silk worm, to see how tired they actually get doing all the hard work.
to be that shoeless flower boy at the signal, to see how much hope and strength he has within him.
to be a kidnappers conscience...I want to know how much it is listened too!
to be the flame of the candle...I want to feel how it is when I burn myself to make lilfe easier for others.
to be a spider...just to see how it feels to have a new house every while.
to be a lizard, would love to see the worl upside down.
to be a moth...to see how it feels to have such a short life.
to be a goldfish...and have no tensions whatsoever...they just have a 3 second memory.
to be Osama Bin laden...want to know how it feels when nearly the whole world is running after you.
to be Juliet...just to know how it feels to have the burning passin within!
to have a lisence to freedom...wouldnt mind that as a forever thing though...
But in the end, all I want ot be is myself, dreaming, moving, growing and evolving everyday of this life!!!!

~This is a very old post which has been revived~

miss you

2006-07-07T01:00:00.000-07:00

please get back soon....i miss you terribly!

enough.

2006-07-05T23:17:00.000-07:00

to grieve or not to grieve

2006-07-01T23:22:00.000-07:00

the heart cant descide whether to grieve for a part of soul that it has lost, a buddy who escaped a suicide attempt, but is undergoing a billion therapy sessions to be saved or that most adorable abandoned 4 month old kid who is fighting a battle every second in order to survive-because his brain needs a surgery that the current finances cant support!
~sigh~

love

2006-06-30T00:25:00.000-07:00

one of the reasons why we crave love, and seek it so desperately, is that love is the only cure for lonliness, and shame, and sorrow. But some feelings sink so deep into the heart that only lonliness can help you find them again. Some truths about yourself are so painful that only shame can help you live with them. And some things are just so sad that only your soul can do the crying for you.

Excrept from Shantaram by Gregory David Roberts

choose

2006-06-28T22:23:00.000-07:00

~what you descide to choose is your destiny...and what you do not descide to choose is also your destiny~

in a pair of two

2006-06-21T05:48:00.000-07:00

day night
male female
in out
dreams reality
boy girl
yin yang
happy sad
you me
today tomorrow

Life is all about the two!

alchemy of desire

2006-06-18T22:53:00.000-07:00

Love is not the greatest glue between two people. Sex is.

Opening line of Alchemy of Desire
Tarun J Tejpal

2006-06-15T03:13:00.000-07:00

and now a khala

2006-06-11T23:25:00.000-07:00

In 1983 for the first time I became a bajo....

in 1984 the first paternal cousin

in 1991 the first maternal cousin

in 2001 a phopoo

and in 2006 a khala....!

And it is the most beautiful feeling ever...!

together

2006-06-07T22:34:00.000-07:00

karachi night

2006-06-05T22:20:00.000-07:00

The Voice Within

2006-05-31T03:05:00.000-07:00

I: But everone suggests otherwise...
The Voice: And you believe what everyone says?
I (pensive): mmm...deep inside, not really.
The Voice: Then?
I: But its a battle of beliefs. The Istikhara suggested otherwise. The baba gave negative feedback. My parents are apprehensive. The lines on my palms are suggestive. I feel torn-lost. What should I do?
The Voice: How much of it do you believe in? Listen carefully to the whisper from your heart. what do you hear?
I (quiet for a bit, in deep thought): It says not to stop believing. To fight the battle, and have faith that the God up there will take care of everything and work things the best way possible!
The Voice: And?
I: And nothing. I am torn between my beliefs and the world. It feels like the world is doing its best to make me into someone who I am not. I feel like its the hardest battle ever....or maybe the hardest battle for the moment.
The Voice: So, if its hard, you think running away from it is the answer. That would be the cowards way out. If you believe in it...fight for it and you shall win! Remember a wise person once said "For us, there is only the trying. The rest in not our business"!
I: I am trying
The Voice: Great. Try and believe! If you believe it, you will see it.
I (smiling): I feel like believing you are right!
The Voice: I call it the moment. Just remember-dont believe your doubts and dont doubt your beliefs...life is beautiful...believe in it!
And for sometime, everything started making sense in her little world....

Karachi

2006-05-25T04:43:00.000-07:00

I believe, that amongst all the cities that the sun visits on its round, Karachi by far has to be the most unpredictable one!

seeing the light

2006-05-09T23:03:00.000-07:00

she will be loved

2006-05-04T00:23:00.000-07:00

When the whole wide world is going upside down and nothing makes makes sense...its best to plug your headphones close your eyes and listen to She will be loved by maroon 5...everything makes sense...atleast for that short a while!

realization 2304

2006-04-23T05:53:00.000-07:00

The pain will subside, but the scar will remain forever!

2006-04-15T23:49:00.000-07:00

A peep into Kat's Life

2006-04-13T02:25:00.000-07:00

5 things Kat is generally grateful for:

Friends
Books
Positive Thinking
Design
coffee houses

Currently reading:
Shadow of the wind at tortise speed...dont want the book to end!

Wants to:
Shake the world so as to make them understand her perspctive!

Currently believes:
What dosent destroy you only makes you stronger.

Current wishlist:
Buy an old typewritter

10 things I was grateful for this weekend

2006-04-11T23:29:00.000-07:00

~ sharing laughs with Nutt over roast turkey sandwitch
~ The bloggers meet up at Espresso
~ My credit card not working
~ Esprsso breakfasting with my two girlfriends
~ The wonderful fish chowder soup
~ Telephone conversation with Uzi
~ giving shopping money to my younger sister, made me feel happy
~ taking out coffee time for Arsh
~ My being a designer...makes my world a better place
~ the yellow star cushion....makes reading so much more comfortable

unparallel

2006-04-11T10:12:00.000-07:00

The socializing weekend got over, leaving me an extremely pensive mood. On Saturday had a blogger meet up. Ended up sharing laughs, thoughts and ideas for almost 3 hours. On the contrary, had a girlfriends breakfast on Sunday, which shockingly came through as an uncomfortably quiet affair. The trio breakfast constituted of us 3 friends whose friendship dates back to almost 16 years.
One of the 3 got married last year and expecting her first born in June inshallah. The other one just quit her job last month, now wanting to be a boss of her own.
Being on separate paths in life, me and my business friend still have some common grounds to touch upon. The third one is on a completely different planet. Where me and the business friend were talking about the latest trends, the mother to be talked about how she could feel her baby’s poking elbows at night!
Being at a loss to converse, I took a back seat, desciding on being an observer. The business friend kept up the conversation because her sister just went through child birth, so she kindoff knew what to talk about.
From the sale at the mothercare to the prices of cots, the feeding delimmas to pre natal classes, listening to her I felt like a stranger with a person I had spent my past 16 years with.
I felt guilty. Sad and lost. Where I was thinking of design world (which was not unknown to her), my best buddy was thinking of whether to buy blue or pink!
Now that I look back, I don’t know how and when our paths became so un parallel. I don’t think I can marriage. Jam got married exactly a week after my buddy, she’s still as I would like to call it "normal".
Maybe it’s my set of tidal waves that have drifted me away….maybe sometime in life we both will have the bond that we had….maybe this is what people call life!

Hyderabad2Lahore

2006-03-26T11:04:00.000-08:00

Dinner at Cuckoos...endless rickshaw and bus rides...getting high with 14 kids, strolling down the mall road on a rainy day...visiting the zoo...dinner at Pc at 2am...dancing like mad at croweaters...smelling patchi chocolates...gollgappas at qadaffi...surprise visit by a friend...kolapuris from khussa mahal...beg borrowing tooth paste...and being surrounded by equally mad people....was what mad the trip to lahore wonderful! A tiring short break which has revived me to head back into routine with more energy and optimism!

lahore lahore aaye

2006-03-26T10:42:00.000-08:00

bright

2006-03-16T10:05:00.000-08:00

Look at the brighter always...its always nicer!

reality bites

2006-03-15T11:04:00.000-08:00

The past few months, as the drama unfolded have severly shaken up my beliefs. As much as I believed in my roots and ideologies, all met with a crash landing. The firm beliefs that were instigated in me were conflicted by the very same people. The result of which has furthur taken me into my dark shell. Dark it may be,
but its safe, cause I am alone. Now, when I peek out today, its with a new look altogether. Everyone is a conspirator in the bigger picture. Simplicity and love are long gone words. Faith has taken a back seat. We believe that we can control destinies. Its a common belief now that money can buy everything-not almost everything! Glass will always be looked upon as half empty, not as an oppurtunity to be refilled! We might be sponsoring and donating, but we still cry about not being rich enough. We will grumble about how the current business situation is too large a headache to handle, but we will still venture into new business avenues to expand. We gossip about people who spend money on balls to drink and dance, but we too will be seen attending though we di neither....but its an event thats talked about. We are always on a lookout to marry daughters into big family names, it dosent matter if the guy turns out to be a rapist later.
The size of diamonds determines if friendship should be establised or not.
To cut a long story short, in the past months I have learnt the hard family way that MONEY TALKS
(though mine generally just says "bye")!

2006-03-13T08:03:00.000-08:00

to leap or not

2006-02-28T23:51:00.000-08:00

the chatterbox

2006-02-23T22:35:00.000-08:00

life choices

2006-02-16T01:30:00.000-08:00

this life is absolutely insane...

yes, life is most certainly insane,

but if looked at it closely

we have the choice of choosing the insanity wisely!

serenity

2006-02-12T10:30:00.000-08:00

Between the devil and the deep blue sea!

2006-02-12T10:23:00.000-08:00

endless thoughts, brain storming with elders, looking for inner peace, striving to make others understand my point of view, questioning oneself, walking on the tight rope, seeking people who would understand my thought process, believing that there is a time to finally let go, accepting that at the end of the day its destiny, juggling between the opinions of family members, knowing that at the top of it all there is a God up there to take care of it all, marvelling at myself and feeling proud of the fact that I have so much hidden patience...thats what the past 3 months have been for me!
I have become mentally exhausted (its not easy getting your point across to a family who refuses to understand), terribly stressed (if something backfires, they will all point at me & say its my fault) & extremly edgy (I can only handle it up to a certain extent)!
But even through all this, when the day ends and you are still smiling, I guess its all worth it....
Its the feeling that you have deep inside that matters, its the opinion of people who matter to you that matters, its looking in the same direction with your partner that matters, its believing that there is a God up there taking care of everything that matters!

2006-01-26T10:11:00.000-08:00

Ek Ajnabee

2006-01-24T10:01:00.000-08:00

Yes-I am not a big movie fan.
Yes-I cant sit and watch a flick for tow hours, more than that in a few cases
Yes-I think watching movies is a waste of time
Yes-I think watching a movie in one go is the best way to test my patience
Yes-I am a very boring person because I dont watch movies
Yes-I'd rather read a book than watch a movie

But No-Ak Ajnabee proved all of the above wrong. I know its an exact copy of an english flick, but my god....the effects, the direction, the editing, the music, Amitabh's (Whos not my favourite actor) acting, all made the movie worth watching! Also the fact that sexy Arjun Rampal almost didnt allow me to blink my eyes...after this one polar bear that I know of....Arjun is probably the hottest guy alive!
Ek Ajnabee is a must watch!

white & orange

2006-01-17T07:03:00.000-08:00

evolving life

2006-01-14T06:17:00.000-08:00

The fast paced changes in my lifestyle has not allowed me much time for reading or blogging lately - both things that I thought I could not breathe without. But the past month has been full of surprises for me. The changes have made me evolve, grow & think furthur broadly. Over this time I have realised that:

~ "Letting go" is not as difficult as it might seem.
~ constant fluttering of butterflies in the stomach can make a scary feeling look good.
~ the term "best friend" keeps on ammending itself according to situations.
~ great things do come in small packages. (believe me I know - am surrounded by two living examples.
~ You know you can conquer the world when you have the right person beside you.
~ everything will start to make sense, when you want it to make sense.
~ nobody can be uncheered with a balloon.
~ at times, the more you think, the more there is no real answer.
~ there is a very very thin line between gossipers and best friends.
~ polar bears are probably the cutest animals in the world (or maybe thats just the way I look at it).
~ Its not the amount of gold that I have, but the rising number of books that I own, which makes me feel rich.
~ No relationship exists in isolation. You immediately become a bhabhi, chachi, mami or something of the kind.
~ you are not looking at each other when in love - but you are looking in the same direction.
~ A smile & a hug will set everything right - well almost!
~ you feel and look younger when you are with someone who loves you and supports you.
~ Nothing can make you feel better when all the pieces of the game of life fit together to make it complete.
~ you know you are highly blessed when every night you go off to sleep smiling.
~ having breakfast with the right friends ensures that the day is bound to end well.
~ Love, smiles, friends and fresh air is the essence to a happy life!

Karachi, my first love

2006-01-11T03:33:00.000-08:00

2912

2005-12-28T22:24:00.000-08:00

No matter how many times you have travelled before, each take off and each landing brings with it, its own set of thrill, excitement, anticipation and thoughts!

2812

2005-12-28T22:15:00.000-08:00

The permanent fluttering of butterflies in the stomach would sometimes give rise to a kindoff sinking feeling. Today, when I was seeing off my khala for Hajj, I identified with the feeling. I already was missing her before she left. At this beautiful time in my life, amongst all the close ones, I wanted her to be by my side too...
Well, hopefully 20 days should fly by too....
I miss you khala!

2212

2005-12-22T10:10:00.000-08:00

no matter how carefree, happy-go-lucky and young you feel, signing a legal document suddenly makes you feel like a responsible grown up!

a somebody

2005-12-21T07:51:00.000-08:00

A smiling ken

2005-12-18T10:06:00.000-08:00

Since childhood I have managed to make friends with people who are quite senior to me in age.
Not that I have an old spirit, but for some reason I manage to get along well with them.
Yesterday, I met up with one such senior friend. After having a work meeting, I stuck around
for extra chatter and a steaming cup of coffee. Conversation shifted from work to life and to everyday routine. It was during this ranting session that she asked me "so whats the issue? Why does a
rebel take over everytime a decent proposal knocks at the door? What exactly are you looking for?"
Had this question been posed sometime back, I would have been clueless, but life has taken a
different course.
For once, the question that had been posed to me more than a million times before, could be answered without thinking hard and hoping to explain myself.
All I had to tell her was that the waiting period is over...hopefully.
She kindoff looked relieved and said, "so how is this guy different from all the other million guys? what
is in him that caught your fancy?"
"He can make me smile", I replied.
And I believe that is what is most important, the rest just follows....!
Amongst all the other special million things...A big Thank you for being my reason to smile!

realisation 1412

2005-12-13T22:30:00.000-08:00

to fogive is easy.....to forget...impossible!

mine to ours

2005-12-08T10:51:00.001-08:00

its a beautiful funny feeling in the stomach when you think of sharing your "living space" with someone-espically when you know that someone, somewhere is also thinking on the very same lines. Everything changes from "mine" to "ours"!

guilt factor

2005-12-06T21:14:00.000-08:00

Silent guilt can make you a living dead body...

my sunshine

2005-12-02T11:12:00.000-08:00

I dont know if you will ever read this or not, but I want to say it my way....

And its my promise that I shall do my best to understand our feelings, to accept the differences, to respect your needs as I respect my own...& that you may not express it openly, but that you are communicating your feelings in a way that you are comfortable with.

As hard as it may sound - I promise to listen & not act ignorant about your feelings. I promise to accept you the way you are, and not try to change you for who I want you to be!

I will listen to what you have to say, because I love you in my own crazy manner & deep down inside I know we will work this out - together...cause this is how it is meant to be... us together forever!

PMS

2005-11-30T22:53:00.000-08:00

and amongst all other things, it is most important to thank god for PMS. Atleast we women have something to blame things upon all the time....

goolona and lolo shum!

2005-11-23T02:44:00.000-08:00

The Unilever event that I worked on was a learning experience of all kinds. From PR to workshops, judging to event management, artworks to travelling, stress to hair pulling, I learnt it all. I learnt that my thinking was developing by examples of the smallest actions, they had started capturing my attention, which had not happened before.
But during this 4 month project the most intresting thing that i learnt was that my vocabulary had increased by 2 beautiful words.
one of the final judges calls her daughter "lolo shum" out of love. On inquiring what that meant, she smiled and said "in persian it means a precious flower".
Another word that I came across was when i was in Peshawar with Jammie. Being in Peshawar for the first time, I turned to a teacher asking where I could go shopping. She asked me what I was looking for. "clothes" was an instant reply. She told me quite a few places, and then said "agar aap ko goolona prints chahiyay tu us ka bazaar alag hai".
Goolona?
She couldnt understand my blank expression. I asked her what goolona meant and she said goolona means loud and colourful....
Uff I instantly fell in love with the word. The sound of it was so sweet....goolona!
And as for now, sub conciously, I see myself trying to put these two words into any and every sentence that is coming out of my mouth!

About the life partner

2005-11-23T02:33:00.000-08:00

money? social status? community? compatibility? background? nothing mattered. it was so easy to fall for the guy who looked straight in the eyes & smiled with reassurance, which in my language translated to "follow me-i know the way".

to vent or not to vent?

2005-11-20T09:12:00.000-08:00

Not a best friend, neither a close buddy.
But someone I knew-well.
we exchaned smiles & random comments when we met at family gatherings.
A 25 year old girl named Yusra.
parents favourite amongst the kids...
favourite niece for aunts & uncles...
a cousin who was looked & counted upon...
a star in her class...
a best friend to her buddies...
a doctor in the making, who people already took advice from...

Got married!

the most beautiful bride...
doting set of in laws...
most "forever" in love husband...
3 months of married beautiful life.

All came to an end this evening.

Exactly 7 days ago Yusra was struck by a fatal virus. First it was fever, then throwing up.
Slowly, she drifted of into coma, one after other her organs failed. She was put on to
ventilator. Doctors claimed her brain dead. But no one lost hope...
She profusely started bleeding internally.
Still everyone believed in the power of the ventilator.
The Aga Khan team could not detect what had happened.
Reports confirmed it wasnt congo virus...though the symptoms suggested otherwise.
Was it something she contracted from any of her patients? Was it something she
got from her Thailand honeymoon?
It is still an unsolved mystery.
She was kept in isolation. Anyone who had been in contact with her is on severe
anti viral treatment. Her body was to be buried immediately.
Aga Khan team gave the body in a wooden box, also providing special gloves
& masks for people who were to lower her into the grave.
Everyone was hit by a trauma. Geo shared this news on "news alert".
Her heart stopped pacing 5 minutes after they took her of the ventilator.
I am saddened by grief, being pulled more into depression thinking might she have survived
had they descided not to put her off the ventilator?

colourful love?

2005-11-18T10:58:00.000-08:00

surprise

2005-11-16T21:07:00.000-08:00

For one particular situation-I had been rehearsing forever, not knowing whether it would actually ever happen or not. Creating images in mind, repeating dialogues to perfection, relocating the locations, anticipating for the moment to come. But when the moment finally came, it still came afresh. All that amount of rehearsing became useless. The flow of emotions was as intense-the scene emphatic.
No amount of rehearsing can prepare you for what has yet to come-the feelings good or bad always have a fresh feel to it.
Thank you god for everything!

magic

2005-11-16T21:01:00.000-08:00

Jammie said "27 is going to be magical". I believed-because I believe in magic. And when you believe in something it is bound to happen-or so they say!

stepping 27

2005-11-14T11:41:00.000-08:00

~ you realise abut your world - the smaller it has shrunk, the richer it has become!`

~ the people who actually matter will always be there, no matter what time of the day.

~ surprises no matter how shocking, will always be pleasant!

~ beginning the year with the "right" mix of people ensures that the next 365 days will be full of blessings, love & smiles.

~ being single at 27 is probably the best thing that could have happened to me.

~ birthdays always bring about with them, people who you had forgotten existed sometime in your life.

~ when you get to cut 3 cakes in a day, you are just reminded of how much you are loved.

~ when you have nothing to talk about with your 16 years old best friend, it could be signs to an alarming situation.

~ gifts are just an added bonus to the presence of all those whom you love!

~ when you believe in magic, it is bound to happen!

Thank you meyum....

reason to smile

2005-11-09T03:26:00.000-08:00

it is simply the most beautiful moment when a 6 year old cousin replies "kanwal jiji" to a stranger who asked her what she wants to be when she grows up!

Realisation # 911

2005-11-09T03:24:00.000-08:00

once we finally accept that life is uncertain-we open for ourselves a beautiful way of living!